THINKING*

This morning I found myself
thinking about the dreams I had,
the things I loved.
Where could they have gone and hid,
Why is my life so filled with dread?,
I looked inside and only found,
a cloud of doubt, of who I am
Can it be I've lost my way?,
or does it mean I have changed somehow.
Is this how life is going to be?
A endless path of sorrow and pain,
or will it change, I do not know.
Only time will tell.
Deep inside I feel this pain,
so many doubts and , sometimes hard to explain.
I wish I just could tell what I feel,
For what I feel is very real.
I feel I'm falling deeper into,
a darkness that no light can take away.
Is there hope? Why is it hard to find?
I am clinging to a very fine thread,
before it breaks can I find a way?
Before my life is taken away.
by Wanda Jess, Oct20(C)2004